Relationship Violence Story From LJ

by LJ
(London, England)

It all started when I met someone I believed to be the best thing that ever happened to me. His name is J---.

We started dating. It was never a normal relationship. J---- was part of a gang. He was verbally very abusive towards me. He even started getting physically violent. He would ask me to clean the weapons he would hide under his bed along with cash he made from drugs. He would cheat on me regularly and then force himself onto me sexually. At first It felt wrong. Then it became the usual. I couldn't focus on my exams at uni. As a result I failed and had to redo a year. J---- has been seeing me for 6 years now. And in this time he has decided to become a boxer. He has even managed to win a few amatuer fights. And his career seems promising. I have recently found out he has been seeing another woman. I have her photographs. I have no idea what to do. I also have my own confession to make. Threw all the heartache J---- caused me I began to fall for another man who I love so much. This man disclosed to me that he has got genital herpes. I recently have been tested and found out that I too have caught this disease. I am scared to tell J---- I fear for my life. When he found out about me and this other man. He beat me brutally. My whole face was unrecognizable. I sustained so many injuries as a result of him becoming extremely violent towards me. But I dropped my case in court as I felt that maybe we could reach a mutual understanding and he would leave me alone. During this time he has been seeing this other woman and seeing me at the same time. He even brought her to my mums house. I dont know what to do about this.