Relationship Violence Story From Kristine

by Kristine
(Philippines)

We've been together with my ex for almost a year the first 3months of our relationship it felt like it was perfect. Were living in together I’m happy and contented but suddenly his bad traits showed off, well I just don't mind it at all because I love him very much. I've got a job far from where he work so I told him to follow me and get a new job from where I was so he quit his job for me. And that was the bad decision I've ever made. He got a new job and it went well but my work demand a lot of time I work on graveyard shift so he's alone at night to kill the boredom he goes out hanging with friends and drinking. I allowed him to do that coz I felt guilty leaving him at night because of my job. This bad habit gets worse until I got home after work in morning he wasn't there and ended up he’s going home drunk. I was so mad then we had a big fight and I decide to leave him but he won’t allow me he locked the door and pull me back I cried but then I forgive him. Since then we always had a big fight with his partying and drinking habits until such time I found out he cheated on me that the girl was pregnant I think I'm going crazy then I confronted him but like most guy does he denied it and I felt so abused emotionally though not physically. Finally I decided to leave him it's not that easy coz I really love him but I can't take it anymore. Two months after I left him he found possible ways to catch up with me being a girl that love him so much I agreed to have dinner with him I said it’s just a dinner, after that he begged to sleep in my place at first I said no but he insisted so I told him OK I’ll let you sleep in my place but I don’t want to have sex so he agreed. Wrong decision again so we arrived in my place he kissed me and I said no then he stop kissing me he pretended to be asleep so I sleep almost near to him. After a few minutes he draw me closer to him I said no he said he misses me so much that he wants us to have sex I said no again his hands touching me in my private parts I felt so violated I removed his hands and I draw him away from me but he insisted he kiss me hardly and touch me in every part I said no but still continue to do it. I'm tired of fighting back and my defenses is getting weak I still love this man and I missed him so much I let him do it I felt like it was my fault of letting him do it though I insisted "NO" a couple of times I felt worthless after what had happened. This wont happened if I don't allow myself to have dinner with him and let him come over my place. After that incident I promise to myself it won’t happened again I refused to see him and reply to his messages. Today I must say I’m very much OK with the help of my church-mates I draw near to GOD my relationship with GOD made me think for right decisions to make in my life. I'm so blessed now by God's grace he helps me to recover and see life wonderfully. Truly, GOD will help us if we asked for his help. Thank you for reading my story and be blessed God is with us...