Relationship Violence Story From Kate

by Kate
(East London, UK)

His name was J a womens fashion magazine editor. Met him on FB he was writing me messages for like a year. I thought it was spam so I never replied but then I made friends with mutual Ldn party models so I found he was real and spoke to him more. Eventually we met up a couple of times, he was staying with his publisher S, I came round when he was alone and he got on top I told him to stop but he just stuck his thumb in my mouth and told me to suck. Then another time he had his mate's derelict 3 floor building to himself after he had sex with me he slapped me round the face. He use to make do Coke with him too. When he was angry with me he'd be silent and ignore my texts and calls. J was v childish, lying and cold. I cant believe I let a monster like him take my V, I had a lot of shame and angst. However, now I workout and meditate, from time to time I check his FB and he's a complete diff person! Maybe it was me I shud have walked away; I was so depressed, low but his sex was bulls-eye! And then he would feed me short monologues from his life, "I'm lonely, my parents never wanted me....I've got all this success but no-one to share it with......" which he laced with "I've told you things about myself that I've never told anyone else". He's so funny, sweet, sophisticate and his friends would think I'm talking about someone else if I told them! I can't talk to him properly he's so moody I can't be me round him the last 2 times the sex was bad. He also never uses protection I've been pregnant twice My body refused 1 then the other I just drunk n overworked out! I haven't been the doctor the last time he was so judgemental so I jus feel like an idiot. I wish I was still a V.