Child Abuse: Times Haven Not Changed

by Jim
(Surrey, British Columbia, Canada)

I am still a very angry person, and just when I thought things were better... 
I was first abused by my mother at around 2 years old. (I am 42 years old now and my mother is 60). It started by her pushing me down a flight of stairs at my grandmother's house where we lived. We lived there because my mother and father were divorced because allegedly she had tried to smother my father in his sleep one night when I was around 8 months old.

My mother beat me and verbally abused me while I was growing up, telling me I look just like my father and I should die. She told me I was useless and that all men are bad and I would grow up to be mean and I deserved to die before I messed a women up when I became older.

I ran away at a very young age (11) where I started to sell drugs as my only financial support. I lived with other drug dealers and hookers where we all pooled our money together and would rent hotel rooms and try and live as natural as could be. I became a very angry person and joined gangs and the like. For some reason, because my mother planted in my head that I would be mean to women or hurt them, I became the very opposite and protected them. I have thousands of stories where I believe I could write a story about my life on the streets in Canada and the US as well as the close calls to losing my life and the countless numbers of friends that did.

I was divorced back around 2004 and remarried in 2006. However, in 2008 my new wife and I found out that 2 of my 5 children had been sexually assaulted (raped) by their biological mother, and because it was deemed a historical case because it was not brought up until 1 year later, they would not put my two girls through court even though they wanted their biological mother thrown in jail for these horrific crimes.

Times have not changed. I was abused and severely beaten up by my middle-class to rich mother, and my little girls were raped by their middle-class mother. Nothing is being done about it. This is bullshit.

I have thought of starting a charity for men who have been abused, but I have almost been laughed at. But what about us who are raising kids that have been raped and we were abused as well...who helps us??? Or are we just stuck in this hell with no help for fear of being called a liar, or maybe you put those ideas into your children's mind???

I really wish I knew who can help people like us!!

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