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Aug 06, 2010
 touched2mysoul:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

The problem with a raised threshold for emotional pain is the toll it takes on the physical body: risk of ALL kinds of disease (dis-ease) and conditions. Not to mention that when we live in a world of negativity, negativity continues to be attracted into our lives. That is not healthy for our "souls", touched2mysoul. That's why it's so important to find a healing path. Again, thank you for sharing more of your story with my visitors and me.

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Aug 06, 2010
 yes it has
by: Scott 1 Canada

I recently smashed my thumb. Not funny ha ha like in the comics though. I really tore it apart. I was swinging a heavy large ball pein hammer when it landed on the target but glanced off and literally tore the flesh from my thumb. And get this ..I didnt lose the nail.

I calmly tore off a large chunk of danglng flesh while pushing yet another piece back into its former position. I decided right there which part of my thumb was not going to survive. Then I calmly walked into the house trailing much blood behind me. I stuck it under the tap which had just ran hot water. I didnt know this and jumped 3 feet out of my shoes.

Next I poured hydrogen peroxide over it, wrapped it in tissue and tape and headed back to work where I left off. It took a month to heal. I didnt feel the pain, but got weak and wanted to vomit when I took off the daily dressing.

Yes it is odd at the level of pain I can endure without making a sound. This is a technique I figure I learned as a young boy being beaten over the knee in front of my classmates. Not wanting to cry or cry out in front of all the children and learning to bottle it up. Espesially when my pants were taken down..if ever there was a test!

Same as home. Make no sound. get smashed around. I guess Im still doing that.
Then at work..But then you have to when you work with the public. You have to take the abuse and bullying of customers daily and pretend to be nice. All these 30 years of being nice has made me sick. Like Darlene wrote, disease.
Now I really try stay away from people. Im tired of them. I find it extremely difficult to put on that fake smile. The one that father used so well. He ws a master. My circle is small now and simple. My thumb is just an example of how far Ive come pysically and now mentally. Touched2mysoul, we've much in common.
Aug 16, 2010
 we have much in common
by: touched2mysoul

Yes Scott ... thank you for responding... it helps to know that my experience is not weird or uncommon.. thank you for sharing a part of yourself with me.

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