Child Abuse Poem From Lizzy

by Lizzy
(Location Undisclosed)

Hold me like this. Please.

I'm Sorry Mommy: 
I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry
That's all that goes through my mind every day.
I'm Sorry I am a burden. I'm Sorry I was born.
I'm only 12 and I've been through every word.
I have Bruises And cuts.
Would you cry? If you look into my eyes?
I know you never wanted me
because you told me.
I know I was the reason you and Daddy are no longer
lovers. Because you told me.
I know I was a mistake an "accident"
Because you told me.
You keep telling me you don't like my friends
So now I don't have any
Just to make you happy
even if you aren't.
I know that while I'm here you never will be

Why is it that I always seem to have a pain
on my chest?
Why do you pull my hair and throw me to the ground
hitting the dining table in the process?
Why Doesn't my sister care?
Why won't God do anything?
Doesn't He think that children need love?
Why won't He come and save me?
Why won't Daddy save me?
Why do you always put on an act in front of people?
Saying you're so proud of me but in truth you can't even look at me.

Because of you I gave up my dream.
My love. My Ballet Shoes. The only thing that kept me
going. Now that it's gone what will keep me up?
At times I wish that when I'm walking a bus would hit me.
At times I wish that when I cry myself to sleep I never wake up.
At times when I when I look at you with all the love I have left I wish that you would do the same for me.
At times I wish you would hold me like you do with my sisters.
At times I wish that before I go I can go on a walk with you and say thank you for all the love.
At times I wish that I told you I have breast cancer but I just keep it to myself so you won't have to feel burdened.

Hold me before I go.

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